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J'aime la liberté, plus que tout. Le prix que je paie pour ça est une sévère solitude, heureusement pas totale. J'ai quelques amis et suis toujours en contact avec ma famille.
Je parle de mes consos à mes ami-e-s, peut-être trop ouvertement. En dehors du travail j'aime pas jouer un rôle, j'essaie d'exprimer ce que je suis en toute transparence. Là je me rends compte à quel point, même venant de personnes ouvertes et engagées dans le social, il y a des préjugés envers les PUD.
Côté conso je suis addict au
- cannabis - quasi quotidien surtout pour dormir
- à l'alcool - quasi quotidien autour de 2 verres/ jour mais j'arrête régulièrement un jour ou plus.
- aux opi - usage en moyenne toutes les 2 semaines depuis 20 ans.
- tabac une clope ou joint/jour.
- Un jeu vidéo en ligne auquel je joue malheureusement 3h/jour: ma pire addiction! :girl_devil:
§4 Aujourd'hui, rien à faire après la manif contre le fascisme. Ça tombe pas dans mon planning de défonce, vu que j'essayais de tenir 2 semaines depuis ma dernière prise, vendredi 14. Mais, bien conseillé par mes compagnons du jour Ennui, Amertume et Solitude, je décide de me la coller. Un bon speedball maison fera l'affaire! J'ai topé de la coke passable il y a quelques jours.
2h30 après mon dernier repas, je bois, après l'avoir bien secoué, un cocktail de jus multifruits ABC, 80mg de mytraginine en gélule, dont j'ai versé la poudre dans un flacon opaque et hermétique en plastique, et une cuillère à café de Kratom maengda. Je rince le flacon 2 fois au jus de fruits pour bien tout récupérer. C'est dégueu comme d'hab.
La montée commence après une 15aine de minutes.
Je me fais donc un petit rail d'une coke de rue en caillou achetée et goùtée il y a 5 ou 6 jours. Loin d'être fabuleuse, elle contient quand même de la C, ça fera l'affaire. J'utilise la C surtout en drug mix. En soit je trouve que c'est trop cher pour le faible plaisir qu'elle m'apporte.
Mais là je tape une ligne en pleine montée de krat, et 10 min après l'effet est au RV! Excitation, euphorie, concentration sur mon jeu vidéo, excitation intellectuelle et sexuelle, envie de partager ça! Avec quelqu'un à qui ça parle bien sûr, c'est sûr que c'est pas le moment d'appeler ma mère! Donc voilà mon blog sur PA!
Je continue à jouer, je m'éclate, focalisé sur ce jeu flash de rapidité et de logique qui doit avoir 25 ans. Efficace contre l'ennui. Je ne voulais pas en refaire mais finalement j'en retape une ligne car l'effet est extra.
Depuis une 10aine d'années le speedball maison est mon péché mignon.
Speedball! Ça en fera peut-être sourire certain-e-s devant leur écran tellement le terme est exagéré pour ma petite mixture. J'en tape pas souvent car j'ai pas toujours les deux prods à dispo. Plusieurs arnaques sur la coke m'ontbien dissuadé aussi. Si je me prends une carotte sur de la C (coupée au speed ou arnaque complète) j'arrête d'en acheter pendant un an ou deux. Merci pour cette politique de prévention efficace les carotteurs de rue! =D.
C'est sûr que comparé à l'authentique speedball -personnage à part entière de la presse rock et people, (cf l'histoire de River Phoenix, cf Nick Kent - qui a soi-disant vomi sur le paillasson de Keith Richards après avoir tapé ensemble :rolleyes:)- des rockstars c'est bien léger, mais c'est mon petit kif anti bourdon. Et là ça m'a donné envie de sortir en plus!
Merci de m'avoir lu! Je suis curieux de connaître les différents usages de speedball ou réactions donc n'hésite pas à poster =) Au plaisir de te lire :salut:]]>